Play Today

Today for the play class, instead of going to the playroom and use the playroom toys, we brought our own toys! I'm so proud of my own toys, though they smell and have weird stains on them and well, are just weird. They are mine mine mine! Ok and Jo's and Hern's. Unlike many others, I actually do own those toys, and oh well, that thought itself made me so proud and happy. See, there's always a time when being a childish person is cool great.

I felt my 'skills' improved. So to say.
I told myself to relax and have facial expression. 0.O??
I told myself to smile and be silly.
And I reflected one emotion, based on guessing. I would like to think it as an improvement. =)

I was sitting at the edge of the chair trying to see what my 'child' was playing with. And I wondered what would happen if I really do fall off the chair.

I played Saj. I played how he doesn't initiate play. How he is fearful of doing the wrong thing. How he only allows himself to play with one toy and only for a short while. How he felt sad when the other kids teased him for being a baby just because he is younger. But all of that, he listens so well to people, agree to everything people say or suggest. He was really positive, assuring himself that everything is ok, and he is doing the best. He, so sad yet so positive.

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Today's scheduled play session with mister EeFei was postponed because it is Lori's brithday today. Yeah, and I'm not invited. Oh well I'm that close to her anyways. So yea, not gonna see him today. =(

And because I'm sharing toys with Kathleen, scheduling is a little bit out of hand right now. Sigh. I should have bought my own toys. This is a very good reason to explain why I'm not a share-y person. Showing off is good, but sharing just isn't.