Filter

it upsets me that i need to filter the things i say here in my very own blog. it's not politics it's not religion it's not nothing but just stories that i wanna record down. it's just my thoughts and judgments i pass. but no i have to keep them all to myself because it's not nice. it's not like i'm naming anyone. it really upsets me because this is supposed to be my blog and not your blog. if you're not happy about it why bother reading. you said feedback is good for improvement but why can't they just take it as feedback if they do read it. i'm upset that i have to think carefully if this is ok to blog, rephrase things to become to ambiguous i won't even know what it is about a month from now. i'm glad it's coming to an end really. for i'm sick of this. i really am. that's why i've decided not to do au pair anymore too because i'm sick of living under people's roof and feel like i owe them so much i need to please them so much they would feel like the bestest people in the whole wide world. i just wanna go away and be by myself, be independent and not depend on no bloody person for whatever thing ever ever again. it sucks to owe people, it sucks to live in fear.