Sick

Sick. Just flu and fever actually, but dad brought me to the clinic and I almost passed out there and then which worried me. Doctor gave me 2 days of sick leave and I used it to the max.

Day 2 a fellow colleague texted to say that her brother got into an accident and is in coma. I got so worried and started to blame myself for not being there for her, instead I stayed home due to cold feet and momentary dizziness. I could have been there to help out in whatever she has to do so she can pack up her emotions to go. I didn't meet her today when I came back to work as she left for the brother.

She must be in so much pain now. There can be so much blame and pain going around in the household. And to care for the brother when he wakes, his physical needs, mental needs, emotional needs, and all, it's going to be so exhaustive.

I couldn't even imagine it. Once I saw a movie or book or something which made me think of loosing my brother and that thought made me down and cried for so long. I can't imagine what's going through the dear colleague's mind right now, the buzz and fear and worries and all the possible things that could fit into our brain at one go, all thinking about her brother lying on the bed in a coma, waiting for the day he wakes.