Driving....

So after POW I ran to the car, and headed to teacher's house. It was already 7.30pm. During the journey, there was a weeny cramp on my chest, it might have felt like the heart, but it was perhaps a little too left to be the heart, but then again, I don't really know how left my heart is actually is.

So I thought, what if it's a heart attack? If this was to happen on a gloomy day I would have easily just thought of crashing into the nearest road block or divider or wall and die hooray. But this wasn't a particularly gloomy day. I just met my very welcoming bunch of friends, and is going to meet 2 of them again really soon. Plus I was heading to the much anticipated discussion class that has been postponed for a month if not more. And mum and dad and Jo are here, I was so near in meeting them already, I don't wanna die.

LOL The ache was that long enough for me to process that much things, if not more. And my thought process was pretty much automated and fast anyways. So. I told myself it's not the time to die yet, well at least it's not a good timing. I tried breathing in and out slowly... And it got away. And I didn't die.

So it got me thinking, when people are near death, do they really know it? Or was it that they are in pain, and they just decided that they wanna call life quits, give up breathing and stuff? If people can be motivated to live and try to make their heart beat or breathe, they can decide give up too, right? At least up to a certain extent they can decide.
But then what about people who just die suddenly? Or was healthy but felt like they're going to die, and just died? Or maybe these people did not feel that they were going to die, or many times we were just too often wishing that we would die and keep telling people we will die, and one day when we really do die, people think we really felt that we're gonna die, and ever since then people believed in the pre-death premonition.