perhaps i'm never meant to be a counselor

had a small talk to the girl in the car. it seems my predictions were correct (afterall I'm a psych student), she feels insignificant, insecure and inferior and numbed to feel and have thought of suicide. *gasp*
I bet the parents don't know about this or anything deep of her.

I popped questions like "Why" "How do you define that" "so what?" etc and try to explain to her what some things meant like happiness, talent and friends, the difference between can't and doesn't etc. Not sure how well my message went across, not sure how much she understands and interprets correctly.

Worrying that she might think to the wrong directions I kind of made a short wrap up as we drive round hte block. I don't know what else to say than to share my piece of advise that may seem too vague for her...
Duty to warn perhaps, the parents who never seem to care? Or it's normal for a teenager to be insearch of her identity?

Me wan go caroling

Went holiday with the girls. Awesomeness despite the crazy weather and exhaustion. @@
Going back soon, can't wait.

Shopping with LeeHeng

NO MORE EXAMS NO MORE STUDYING (I actually thought to myself if I die today I'd be a crying ghost! After all those suffering and torture I've finally made it to freedom and holidays now I die?!?!)

Today's post is actually on..
Of all places and of all people, it's with LeeHeng in Times Square.
LeeHeng is my secondary friend whom I always wait the bus patiently together after school, whom I have lost contact since high school graduation (note: most children those days don't own cell phones or emails yet), who found me on Facebook (thanks FB you're so great!@@) some days ago and decided to date me!

OMGosh what weird fortune I was worried sick that I'd screw up the trip by being antisocial and whatever but no! LeeHeng was so nice, she's kind of auntie which makes it good, she talked and talked I felt so comfortable being with her and talked sumore. I felt like she's my bestfriend who I meet everyday LOL when we actually haven't met each other for almost 4 years (now I feel old).

We settled at Gasoline for lunch. IMHO creepy cave-like decorations, and well they have that floor seating tables like Japanese style but it stinks of feet. *puke* Food was not expensive, I had marmite chicken rice with Lemon tea for RM8.90 excluding tax but heck, not worth the price cuz the chicken was not even up to hypermarket standard, dry and hard and too tiny. The problem is they didn't even serve napkins/serviettes/tissue and well for the price they should at least place the rice and chicken nicely or else it's almost no difference from economy rice lor... But the company was good. =)

Then she brought me shopping (I brought her shopping whichever) and try to convince me to buy every dress she finds pretty but the good thing is she never gave up on me even after I rejected her many dresses. LOL

I came across this store that sells celebrity-stuff, mostly Korean celebrities, with some Taiwan and Japanese I think (The store was crowded with people like the merchandices are free man). Their names on keychains, picture keychains, poster bags, T-shirts, mouse pad, ear phones you name it! I found it so amusing... Coolness.

Then I mentioned that I've never been to Pavillion so she brought me by foot, actually she didn't know the route but asked around a tonne of people for directions and we found it yay~ So yea my first time to Pavillion, it was... a crowded version of Gardens I think.
Which we took pictures with the christmas trees there and bumped into Lydia (Thomas' sister, speaking of which, Thomas studies at HELP but I never see this guy, it's been over a year..@@) who came for a holiday with her friends after SPM.

Then we went McD cuz I was dehydrated sial. Chocolate shake rawks!

End! =)
Happy happy day, good good company at a cheap cheap shopping place I love the price tags!

데이트

친구랑 데이트가 있어.
내일은 난 고등학교 친구를 만날거야.
같이 점심을 먹고 쇼핑을 할거야.

Size!

I bought new slippers. Yay~
12bucks. supposedly a world reknown brand. Ha-ha very funny.
After I get back home I realize...
both sides are not of the same size.
Right is 40, left is 41. *roll eyes*
Jo told me good thing it's bigger (41) cuz 39 is too small, which makes good sense.
It's originally 20bucks but today they sold for 12 so I quickly grabbed them. The moment I said I want it the sellers (lady and man) both had this weird look in their eye for one split second. I felt so uncomfortable upon buying it feeling as though I've committed some crime or being tricked into some fraud.
Then when I walked about to the other side of the night market the other stall shouted for the same price, except that they have more colors (my favourite color blue!) and models... *pull hair*

Stop feeling Guilt

Whatever I do I feel guilty.
I don't offer to drive him when I actually can make some time to, guilty.
I offer to drive him around, guilty.
I eat out, guilty.
I eat at home, guilty.
I stay at home and study, guilty.
I go out to study, guilty.

I feel guilty either to myself or being a not-filial person.
I think I should stop, but how?

Happy HOLIDAYS!

##Merry merry christmas, merry merry christmas to you and me and your whole family. we sing for food and we sing for money, nothing is free. we want food. we want food. we want food. hey hey.## (song sang by Grace Assembly caroling team N years ago)

305 Ethics in Psychology marks the end of this whacky semester. MCQ easy Short Answer Questions I have no comments. Manic manic manic!
Saw Joshua just now in DSA, his last paper is at 2.30 today, only going back on Wednesday which is after I'm back! Whoahahaha so happy that people go back later than me. Saw that Hao was back already the other day on Jo's blog, made me so sad so sad... =(
And Ju's back today too..

Neways I'm now here watching PPStream on some taiwanese entertainment talkshow program, so funny! Laughing out loud with shoulders shaking violently up and down at the mean time try to cover my laugh in DSA. LOL I'm actually waiting for YY for her very last paper at4pm so that we can go pasar malam.

Enjoying high internet connection speed. =) Life's good!!

Japu shit

ok it's a random title. blah~

the girl has been interested in learning Japanese language for quite some years now but the mother never wanted to send her for classes uptil now she asked me where to get the language class. frankly i know that it's a trouble to fetch her in and out because of the crazy jams these days so i gave some thought to learn together so i can fetch her as well. but then i decided that it's not the wisest choice to maximize pleasure for me so i cancelled the stupid idea off.

that day when i told her where to get those classes i have no idea why i mentioned that idea. i regretted almost immediately and thank goodness heaven and earth that she misunderstood me and didn't get the idea. a huge *phew*

sometimes i don't understand myself.

negative event turned pleasurable..?

I went shopping (kind of) while waiting the kids tuition-ing. I figured it's not wise to bring my laptop out (cuz all my notes are in it) as I always worry that I will be victim of snatch thief (yup, cultivation theory + subjective victimization risk) and do not wish to loose my beloved computer and all those treasure in it. Thus I studied quickly before I have to go out and finished all the materials that I've planned for the day.

Shopping alone is pretty ok. Just that there's nothing to shop. I spent 10minutes in the ladies clothing and spent the next hour in the kiddie stationery section being amazed by all the HighSchoolMusical,Spiderman,Transformers,BobtheBuilder,Barbie,DoratheExplorer,etcetc stationeries.

There was this auntie/taitai who purchased some stuff from the departmental store. She is in a hurry so she wanted the gift wrapping crew to just give her the wrapper and she'll go wrap it at home herself but the gift wrapper lady refused and took her time measuring the gift and wrapping it.
"Why you like that one. it's almost raining now, what if my goods gets wet? you already measure it, it takes 2 pieces of wrapper why can't you just give the wrapper to me, i'd wrap it at home, save your human resource. i parked my car at central and came all the way here to buy things from you but you don't even wants to listen to me, what kind of customer service is this? see, i've bought so many things you still refuse to give me the 2 wrappers that what, cost you less than 20cents. i can do the exact same wrapping at home, it's going to rain now why cant you just give me the wrapper and i go back now. if my things get wet who's going to be responsbile for it you tell me. you should talk to your manager blah blah blah blah blah..." (I know the things she said so well cuz she kept repeating over and over and over again).
What a nosy and bossy auntie right? sigh... spoil all the reputation of aunties...

Anyways after that the worker lady OF COURSE whined to her coworker,
"alah, she got children we don't have meh. why doesn't she care about our feelings. we have children too. why doesn't she care about our feelings blah blah blah"
(frankly I think the wrapper lady seriously running out of good points to defend herself). Not that I don't feel for her, but IMHO it's really not professional to complain so loud and clear in your workplace during working hours in front of customers.

Back to me...
Then I spent the last few minutes in Giant. Before a Chinese lady (from China) came asking me if the bottle of sunkist she was holding can be drank straight without adding water. So I asked the store person and he said only cold drinks, which the lady was ok with. Then she started to grab a random box of orange juice from the rack, I thought she'd be done with it but she turned back and asked me if it contains sugar. Apparently she wants fresh orange juice without water/sugar it made me wonder why she didn't bother to make the juice herself or eat orange straight.
Neways she put back, took another brand, put back, took another brand and i stood there telling her if it's meant to be drank straight (without adding water) and read for her the ingredients if it mentions adding sugar.

I love random incidents like this. Awesome, suddenly I helped someone. =P

Why you so inconsiderate one?!

For once I feel like studying hard, and I felt I should stay at home instead of running out all the time. I wanted to please you but no I think I'm wrong.
Dah-lah you don't encourage/foster reading at home, when people actually want to do it you do all kinds of funny things to stop people from reading, then you complain that people don't read. what kind of funny ass are you?!

I have one more paper and I really want to study hard for it but here you are being inconsiderate asking me to fetch your kids to tuition when you can do it yourself. I care not if you read it here I really am very dissasified and fed up and dunno what to say I feel like crying wtf.

I think I should stop pleasing you and do whatever I want. I'm now locked up in her room and I'm going to continue this to stay away from the TV and shoutings and babbling downstairs because I won't have peace today to study and I can't afford to slack cuz a few hours of my time will be spent out there fetching your kids.